I remain buried in thoughts if the same state of my health continues what will happen to me in the remaining period of my life.
I have yet to live many more years.
Admonition agg
Act of cautioning advising or encouraging is not approved
Any word uttered to caution or advice or even encourage him in his efforts is going to have adverse effect in his mind. Instead of taking to correctives, he will try to stick to his ways with greater vigour
A false appearance or assumption of a state, quality or manner or showing off one's abilities accomplishments, position, status or possession etc.
Because there is a desire to remain in the limelight. This is done by way of projecting one's prominence in appearance, quality or manner which in reality are not original and are artificially acquired. This in other words is self projection to satisfy one's ego without harming or cheating others but with a tinge of exaggeration of one's qualities, etc.
It is apparent from his face and actions that the patients is in great distress, and is not able to bear the pains. Yet he is trying to show that he is not much bothered about it. That he is a man of perseverance."
He is having high fever. He has called for you for the medicine. He is looking at your face. If he finds that you are taking his case with all seriousness he will try to behave as if he is not much worried and will try to take credit that how lightly he can take the matter which is otherwise very grave. But from your appearance if he finds that you are not taking things we all seriousness he will become serious and will try to behave in such a manner as to impress upon you that his case requires serious attention. Although he is strong enough to bear it.
Affectionate
One who shows affection or characterized by affection. Lovable.
One who attracts everyone by manners and behavior in such a way that they feel attached to him. One who love and is loved by every one.
He is really a very lovely child. He behaves so attractively that no one can restrain himself from doing him a favor. When I entered his room just to examine him he sprung up from his bed within no time to fetch a glass of water for me. I was so impressed by his gesture that I could not restrain myself from kissing him. I was definitely inclined to examine him more closely
Amusement , desire for
Wishing to have some sort of amusement. May not insist on it but will like if he gets it
Today I am not feeling well, and I just do not want to do anything except that I should have something to hold my mind pleasantly.
It may be music, a song, a pleasant company full of interest or just a stroll in some park to have a look at beautiful flowers etc
Frivolous, alternating with Absorption
Arg-n
Two states are interchanging between Absorbed and Unseriousness
About his problem sometime becomes serious & the other un-serious.
With me the problem is that two types of ideas keep on interchanging in my mind.
One moment I will become serious about my problems and go deep into the matter and at the other I will tell myself there is nothing to be serious about anything, why are you bothering so much".
Anxiety, alternating with indifference
Nat-m
Feeling uncomfortable as to what will happen and not bothering for whatever may come, these two states of mind frequently interchange between one & another.
Sometimes the thought worries me who knows what is in store for me. Whatever or not I shall be lucky enough to get cured
Sometimes the same thought comes but does not bother me as if I feel no concerned about my health.This is how these thoughts in my mind interchange between one another, continuously.
Anxiety, business about
Arn, Bry, Calc, Nux-v, op, Sul...
Business: occupation or profession.
Discomfort about something unknown in connection with business.
Nothing else is worrying me except that if I do not get relief speedily then who knows what will happen to my job. There are chances of loosing it also.
Avarice
An excessive desire to gain and hoard wealth
Once a patient told me about his behaviour while spending. He related that he was a man of lakhs yet he would not like to part with the money which once entered his safe, or the purse. For instance, he added that for making payment for my medicine he would wait for certain fresh receipts and would not touch collections already received and revealed further that this tendency was generally the cause of dispute between him and the members of his family
Cares, full of domestic affairs about
To remain full of worries concerning household affair
Except matters concerning home, nothing else enters my mind. I cannot help that. I know it is too much, but I also know that it is unavoidable."
" Are you really fed up with it ?" "No, No, who else will look after it . After all home is home . I have to worry about it."
Clinging, child awakens, terrified, know no one , screams, clings to those near
Stram, Borx
Child: Infant, immature
Awakens: Becomes aware
Terrified: Subjected to intense fear
Knows: Recognizes
Screams: Cries with shrill sound
While asleep child awakens. Full of terror and in that condition does not recognize anyone but simply catches hold of the people who are near and will stick to them.
This rubric has generally been found application in the cases of children. A mother may come to you one day and report, that her child awakens in a Terrified state and recognizes no one but simply screams and tries to cling to any person who is near by.
The patient was reminded of a tragedy which he met previously. The idea overtook his mind that it was about to repeat itself and terrified him to the extent that he started behaving in senseless manner and tried to cling to those near him, crying 'save’,’ save'.
Company averse to, avoids the sight of people and lies with eyes closed
Kola, Sep
Company: championship
Eyes closed: not allowing oneself to see
Wanting not to be seen by the people lies in a corner with eyes closed away from company.
I don't like company and try to get aside to remain unnoticed and to see others by lying with eyes closed
Delusions, is being injured by his surroundings
Surrounding (n): things, persons and atmosphere, which encircle a person from all sides.
Feels that his surroundings are harming him.
People around me are not co-operating and are rather selfish. This hurts me a lot.
Delusions, wrong, fancies has done
Wrong: Not in accordance with what is morally right or good.
Fancies: inclinations exercised in capricious manner.
He seems to be imagining that a particular action taken by him was wrong and not based on proper judgment.
I know I should not have taken your medicine without your instructions.
After I had eaten it. Perhaps I had forgotten that it had never suited me.
It so happens that after a long time of overall relief I am tempted to test whether my system is still allergic to certain items of food with otherwise I relish very much. But after eating I realize that I should not have done this experiment with myself once again
Haughtiness alternating with Discouragement
Agn
Here two feelings are interchanging with one another. On the one hand it is one of courage or a sense of impotence and on the other is an effort to suppress this reality. Where within him the feeling of impotency persists, outwardly by false assurances he tells himself that he is not discouraged and will be in a position to manage whatever problem he is going to face or is faced with. Actually he is adamant not to yield although internally he realizes if something actually happens he may not stand it.
Versions :-
Two states interchange between one another in my mind. When I apparently find no chance of recovery. All sorts of discouraging thoughts surround me. But when I find myself totally demoralized I try to suppress my thoughts and force myself to accept what internally I feel is not true. "Why do you worry, nothing is going to happen." These are the words that I shall try to repeat to myself again and again."
Dullness, understands questions only after repetition
Caust, Cocc, Hell, Kali-br, Phos, Sul, Zinc
Slow or weak performance in perceiving and creating
As the understanding is slow, requires repetition of the question, by the questioner to understand it properly.
Will you please repeat as to what is your question. I am sorry I couldn't follow it.
Ennui, entertainment, amel
Entertainment: Something that diverts the mind or holds the attention agreeably. It may be in the form of hospitality by anyone, or musical performance, etc. ameliorates : (v): makes better or improves.
To remain sick even for a day is a matter of great boredom for me, of course if I have something to divert my mind and hold my attention agreeably then I may not mind.
Either someone may engage me in some sort of interesting conversation or try to entertain me as a guest or did some sort of performance like music, etc., etc.
=== Jealousy ===
Jealousy: Uneasiness at the success or position of others or suspiciousness or rivalry or faithlessness in love or business affairs.
Jealousy is just opposite to envy. It is double edged. Neither he can tolerate others possessing something which he does not possess nor he can tolerate others having the same thing which he possesses. He will remain busy busy in suspecting otherers of robbing him of his possessions. He may take to offense in protecting his possessions.
When I see people laughing it comes to my mind that I should snatch from them their joy. If cannot enjoy why should they."
=== Fear, self - control losing ===
Self control: hold over ones physical and mental functions. Losing (v): Of being deprived of.
Interpretation :- fears that in a particular situation in may be deprived of control over his physical and mental functions and thus the situation may go out of his hands.
Versions :- (1) "before going out, I am reminded of urinating because of the fear if in case I feel the urge somewhere at such a place during my journey as do not provide the facility for it. It is possible that I may not be able to keep control over myself and the urine passes involuntarily in the trousers." (2) "I know, that I am fully equipped with the knowledge about my profession and subject but what I fear is whether during the interview I shall be able to keep control over my memory and intelligence and perform properly as I feel I can and I should."
Secretive
Secretive (adj): one who does, makes or conducts without the knowledge of others, as a matter of his nature or habit.
Please don't disclose it to anyone that I am under your treatment. I shall like to keep it to myself.
Hopeful
Who feels that the events may turn out for the best. Assured in the mind at the happening will be favourable. Fully confident of getting desired results.
Mind mind assures me that I self recovery. It is my internal feeling
Inciting, others.
Inciting (v): prompting to action
Prompting others to action and keeping himself behind and quiet.
You might have treated many people successful but I will accept your skill only after you cure me