Perhaps unknowingly he hopes, the day will be happier today. But after half the day is over and nothing comes up he longs for a change. Many times he decides that it is useless to think over all these matters for which others too advice. But he fails, to stop himself from doing so.
Like incurable disease, he feels it is impossible for him to change his occupation at this stage.
Therefore the job is bound to finish him prematurely. The feelings of boredom comes in the afternoon.
Gesture strange attitudes and positions
Excitement alternating with sadness.
Sometimes he assume s strange attitudes which are not expected of him. No body and even himself could expect that, he can behave in that manner. All feels astonished
Ultimately a moment comes when he decides that he will go out for a change to a friend’s house.
Many times he fails to decide, and his enthusiasm is dampened. Thus discouraged he decides to decline the idea of visit. But if he decides on a particular person even then, his original enthusiasm wanes. He tries to cover his intentions, and shows as if his visit was to oblige the friend.
He will say, “For many days I was remembering you. Since you have not tried to meet me I thought let me take the initiative
That’s how without opening his mind he leaves the friend’s home after a few hours of stay with him.
Friend is a person who is so intimate, that in the company of whom one can behave with full freedom and express himself without any hitch.
Feels so relieved as if he got everything denied to him otherwise.
He decides and dresses himself accordingly and comes out of his home and stops himself at the gate. Tries to focus his vision all around to find out who he considers a friend in the real sense.