He is angry and there follows certain ailments, after anger.
May be in the form of anxiety and silent grief etc.
D: "Do you get angry"? P: "I do but avoid it because it shatters the whole of my frame." I become angry, sometimes violently on small matters when things go against my wishes "Contradictions"
D: Why cannot control your anger? P: Because basically I cannot endure and tolerate disturbance.
ln reality it is his disliking for disturbance which gets manifested in the form of anger etc.
He is hasty in answering questions, one may like to ask. Definitely it has a cause that of he desires to remain quiet, also of indisposition to talk and even of thinking.
Because thinking of complaints or about anything else aggravates his complaints ultimately causing disturbance (which he is averse to).
Although by nature he is averse to work, desires rest, inclined to sit, slow in habits yet he chooses a sort of disturbance to avoid a greater one.
The causes of greater disturbance are his desires. He is full of desires and many times desires more than he needs and sometimes for those things which are not present and attainable.
This desire is so out of proportion that he is in the habit of demanding things for nothing.
He is hard at work and makes it a point to achieve them, forgetting his inconveniences.
I was on a private visit to a relative's house. I shall like you to imagine the things as I saw there. It is morning time. The housewife has left the bed and just attempted to stand up on her feet. Her eyes are still closed and by observing one gets the impression that she is not in the position to balance herself. Looking to her condition her husband asks 'What is the matter?"
"Please do not disturb me. Wait a little. Let me come to myself and don't ask any thing for sometime," she said and became silent.
Agreeing with her husband , she continues, "Yes sir, he is right. I never want that any body should disturb me while I am at work."
Confusion
Confusion of mind, yawning, amel
After a few moments, she was seen to yawn, and seemed to be more alert
Confusion of mind, morning waking on
In the meanwhile her husband brings a cup of hot tea for her. They sit over it. She starts telling. "it happens to me every morning on waking and on rising."
Unconsciousness, morning, rising, on
As soon as I step down from my bed a state of complete unconsciousness overtakes me
Strange land as if in a
Del, strange land, as if in a
Bry, Plat, Vetat
Del, strange room, seem (Sehgal)
Home,desire
Del, strangers control of, under (1)
Then again after she came out of the state of her stupefaction, she asked, " Where am I ? 'To me you look as if you are a stranger, that I have seen this room for the first time and that some new faces are controlling all the activity around me .
To him everything looks strange as if under the control of strange.
His friends appear to him strangers, residence a strange land. His remarks will be "l am not able to make out as 10 what is happening to me.
It is a strange type of feeling which I have never experienced before. And feels as if in dreams. Shrieks on waking with pains. Becomes nervous and will weep.
I can't explain how I feel. I must go home.
In a state of delirium, and stupefaction he gets delusions that be is away from home.
He must go home because he wants rest which he feels he can get only by being at home and then only he can get rid of the disturbance which he is averse to.
It is difficult to make out and explain as to what happen to me except that I am stiff and stilled all over the body. Mentally and physical every thing remains jammed and locked. It takes me at least half an hour to recover from that state. I stop and utter that she was being beaten
He is homesick, talks or home and sometimes has a desire to leave home. Because he suffer from mental insecurity. So he tosses between two poles constituting his emotional frame i.e. problems.plating to his wishes and the way he wants the things to be and problems relating to his capability to perceive and produce thoughts.
He is capricious particularly when rising in the morning. He is as if in a slate of unconsciousness and at that moment if you try to talk to him he will simply like that you do not disturb him.
Telling you that be is not within himself. He is notable total you as to what happening to him and what actually is needed by him.
From the tone and style of her expression, one could feel that this awarness of her own shortcomings was also making her uneasy.
Her husband added that there was one more thing.
Disturbed averse of being
CONTRARY
Rest desire for
Sit, inclination to
Industrious, mania for
work
"She is full of contradictions", her husband starts, 'She desires rest, and is always inclined to sit.'
Yet, 'I never find her taking rest. I can say that by nature she is industrious.'
She tries to correct his statement. 'No doubt I want rest and will like to sit but only when I am mentally at rest or my physical ailments permit me to do so.'
Anticipation
If I know that some work is pending I cannot imagine anytlhing else, except that I must finish it
Del, Soldier cutting him down, Cool amel, on getting
*Soldier: Someone who is to help you
I am a self-made person. I am independent. I do not rely on anyone. I can't quit my job. Because I cannot entrust my work to anyone.
Suspicion towards his subordinates. I can't trust them and I always watch out for them. I am always worried that under his hands, his life, career, and reputation will be damaged. As if my son is the same soldier who hurts me. In his job, he gives the best service to his customers and as long as he is healthy, he does not stop working. It is very difficult for him to leave his job under his hands. Collapse in him means
A person is having pains and body ache which is harming him, he wants to be quiet and rest without being disturbed "Del, injured is being", "Quiet wants to be", "Rest desire for", "Disturbed, averse to being".
But business is very important for him, as it brings profit (money), so if he rests and doesn't go to his work or attend his business he will loose money or profit which will cause more troubles mounting to much more sufferings (Fear of poverty and Fear of suffering). If he lies down in bed, he becomes poor which is more than the only physical suffering which he will get if he goes to his job or business. So he prefers going to work, doing business in spite of feeling pain and suffering.
Here we can see how he Chooses the lesser evil.
Keeps making efforts in spite of counter influences opposition (Perseverance). The pains, suffering, disease is coming as an obstacle but he bear it and goes to work to earn money. Without work and money he will invite poverty which will cause more miseries.
That is why he prefers suffering than poverty so between the two evils suffering and poverty he chooses suffering.