She fears sufferings (inconveniences), but at the same time gets annoyed without any useful work.
Domestic work is not work (productive job) for her. Yet to keep up her prestige, she tries to do what is maximum as a house wife whether or not she is able to do.
Actually the fear of suffering is not the fear of the pain or the agony but because of being rendered unable to work, and to feel herself more wanting than others in any way
The disease causes feeling of poverty which compels her to argue why can't she work, like a handicapped person.
She does not care what others say about her. She believes that she is in capable of doing any thing properly.
P: I will not work because I am not well. But this does not mean that I cannot work. I do not fear work. I am physically unfit to work. I feel that my sickness has ruined me and damaged my health beyond repair”
Del, Abyss, falling others would fall down an abyss, as they stand close to it
Sadness idleness while (1)
Anxiety work, a with inclination to (1)
God knows how people afford to sit idle. If I have to sit without work like them I become uncomfortable .
Rather while I am at discomfort for any reason, I feel like doing something more”. “I can think and understand better after having a stroll or a little exercise”.
Company, aversion country away from people, wants to get into the
Calc, Merc, Sep
But soon the idea that she is being observed overtakes her mind and drives her to be up at work in spite of being sick.
Therefore she either likes to give this impression that she has worked and contributed something or she will like to be away from her people in the country-side (supposed to be less inhabitated, and obviously a lonely place with a remote chance of being observed and having any noise) which helps her to sleep well and be at rest.
Adulterous
The main concern is avoiding inconvenience (suffering). What ever way it is possible. If someone offers her a helping hand full of comforts she can barter it for something which for others means chastity.
So her main concern is that her condition should not be observed by others and that is why she is indifferent to recovery
I am not concerned whether I get cured permanently or not. What I am mainly concerned with is the removal of suffering (because of which I cannot work).
To fulfill her ambition she tries to improve her qualities. The sense is when anything gets magnetized it attains the quality of the magnet. The quality of the magnet is to attract. So this person remains interested in adopting the qualities which charm or attract others and will try to display them in a manner to exclusive which distinguishes him from others.
But the main fault lies in his inability to assess properly as to whether he really has been successful to project himself to the extent he has been trying.
He has a passion to know about his sickness and that he normally does by himself.
Break pin, means to crack the information.
Sits means, from one place.
This patient tells that he hasn't got anyone who can really make him understand his problem. He says, "I wish that one day I can find someone who has such a great knowledge or experience which can boost my confidence."